11th

SHE'S OFF TO CHINA LATER. SAD THING! WE CANNOT COMMUNICATE FOR A WEEK..:'(

I'LL WAIT FOR YOU CALL AND MESSAGES..:(

HOPE AFTER CHINA, PHILIPPINES NA..HOPE TO SEE YOU ON FEB.:'(

HAVE A SAFE TRIP.♥

silent heart

way back 3months ago, i was a girl who is been broken, chasing some1'd heart, begging to come back to me but still end up being dumped..i was so helpless at that time, no one's care even her.. i was supposed to give up but shes still keep me hanging. i was tired of everything, so i stop coz i realized that there is no point of waiting! waiting for the things that aint gonna be back again like what it used to be.i also promised not to love gain after a very creep-ling fall.. so i let my self to be free, enjoying my life ,keeping away from those things that would makes me remind those shit happen to me.& don't let anyone see how my heart bleeds each day i live.i bare it on my own and make myself stronger than it was.i could say that being single  was great yet sad..great coz u will find yourself and be able to grow..sad, coz u will feel out of love, no ones care..but good thing! i got my friends..few months had pass, i met some1 online.well, usual doing, accept friend request, having a strange conversation etc. but honestly, i had fun talkin with her,shes crazy, sweet,caring etc. each day passes by, i found myself falling in love with her, but bcoz of what happen to my past so i let my heart to be silent. i control myself from fallen inlove again..so we talk en talk en talk..few weeks had past..we rarely have a conversation, were both busy with our own lives. till one day,i dont know who pushes me too send her a message, but yes! i did..with out any expectation of her reply.. but guess what?? she did.hahaha..*kilig* :)) i dont know why i feel that. but i know myself! im inlove with her..but yet! i still remain silence..that most kilig is, when she ask my number..haha..without any hesitation, i gave it to her..it was 16 of October 2010, morning, when she txted..haha..asusual, kilig na naman ako..hahha..in it was also the time that she called me..en my suprise! i answer the phone without knowing how to approach her..we just laugh in a few minutes that were on the phone..sad thing, the connection is trying to fucked up our conversation..but still, *kilig* :) its good to hear her voice actually. soo ayun..txt2 to the max..feelings start to grow in exist.till one day, our simple conversation would turn to confession. she confess about what she feel about me..at first, i feel uncomfortable, scared to let her know that i feel desame way, but then, my heart says, why dont you try. take arisk but just be careful..so, even i have a fear that i feel inside of me..i confess also my feelings to her.my god, im gonna take a long distance relationship again.hehe.well, it was soooo fine..at list my heart is free..hehe..so, continue of sweet moments.txt2, lotz of precious words,etc. till 18th of october,  its a normal day, get up from bed, eat, txt her, come online just to see her..i didnt know that 18th would now be a part of my life.. she ask me to make everythings official.in short "maging kami na" im still in a 50-50 situation.YES OR NO.. 7:02 pm (YM) her proposal to be part of her life.. my mind say NO. but my heart shouted YES!!! and yeah.. its a YES! :)) after that, we both became speechless, we laugh,loadz of icons..
>the next day, start being in a relationship with her..as time goes by, we find ourselves fallen inlove with each other so deeply..i admit..im having hard times, still adjusting. still afraid.lots of negative thoughts..but good thing is.

IM HAPPY KNOWING THAT SHES STILL THERE, TRYING HER BEST TO MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP TO WORK..:)

>AND NOW, IM HAPPY HAVING HER INMY LIFE..HOPING TO SEE HER VERY SOON..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JAT.♥